we used to be so close . talking . crapping . laughing . sharing .

but now it seems like we are total strangers .

he used to find me in msn . we talked alot , shared alot , crapped alot .

nowadays i find him and try to have a chat .

but he is not interested in having a convo with me .

it's always hi . that's all .

i feel that the bond that we used to have is now becoming weaker . and weaker .

i hate to see that bond slowly becoming a faded memory .

i hate that i waited a whole week to online and when i finally do , he is not there .

i hate how i use to be there for him and he is no where to be found when i was having problems .

i hate that everytime i see him , i get all excited for no reason .

i hate that i always dream about him eventhough i tell myself not to .

i hate that i always expected alot from him .

i hate that i cared so much for him .

i hate myself for loving him .

i am trying hard to forget about him .

this is tough stuff .

i want to get over him so badly .

but it's just too hard .

i just want us to be good friends . nothing more . nothing less .